To say I've been in a blogging funk is an understatement. For every '11 Sex Positions for Millennials' I bosh out, I felt that 3 brain farts followed through. Literally shit on to page.
I needed a fresh start. A fresh outlook. And then I realised that my funk was somewhat related to my self-image. I lost Vix Meldrew and in that, I lost Vicky.
Whilst I was happy in a new relationship and a few exciting things had started to happen, my path was confused and so was my feelings towards myself.
So I decided to make a change. It started with my hair and finished with a kinda-sorta-not-really-but-bear-with-me life plan for the rest of 2017 and the start of 2018.
So what's fresh about me? Well my hair for one. I'd gotten abnormally and ridiculously down in the dumps about the state of my appearance. Unkempt eyebrows, ever thinning lips and aging forehead was compounded by my dislike of my growing out ombre head shitpile.
I needed a refresh to feel invigorated. It worked. As soon as my hair was blow dried and the colour appeared under the bright sunlight, I had a wave of 'Yah babeh you got this' wash over me.
Staring into a hairdresser's mirror for hours on end really makes you reflect on not only the absolute creature that stares back at you, but also what's going on inside that swamp monster.
My first realisation? I can't keep reflecting on myself as the swamp monster. I have underlying self-esteem issues that need to be dealt with ASAP. Thirty One years of not feeling enough and I've had enough. So my post-hair do, to-do list began with a call to my GP to chase up my therapy referral.
Going in to 2018, I want to find me again. The new me. The non-single, ambitious, settled and driven me. The me that makes me feel proud.
I get a lot of pride from my work and the blog here. So I reflected on how I can refresh that...
So what's fresh around these parts? Hopefully you've noticed that I've been playing around with my layout and attempting to get better photos. I've really fallen in love with photography and making these pages look great so hopefully that's translating to you!
Well obviously Vix used to be a single gal flapping around life like a twat and taking you all on a ride. But moving into 2018, I'm (hopefully) not single. Although I am still flapping around life like a twat. And I still have a ride I want you to go on.
I want you to come with me as I learn more about myself, my mental health, my views on the world, my relationships and my career.
I want you to learn about social issues, as I learn about them but in an approachable and light-hearted way because this world is fucking shit and I need you to help me make sense of it and make it feel less shit.
I want you to laugh along at my lists of mind-garbage and tales of embarrassing things that inevitably happen to me.
I want you to be by my side as I still navigate grief and loss and I want to be a shoulder to you in your hard times - whether it's in love, friendships, family or career.
I also want you at my stand-up shows as I cross another thing off the bucket list and attempt comedy.
Lastly, I want you to be with me on my journey into books and possibly TV.
Next year, I will have much more time to focus on these parts. I'd love to blog 5 times a week but will not pressure myself to do so.
I will hopefully be given more fantastic opportunities to write sponsored content. As someone who was once told they were not 'commercial' due to their outspoken sweariness it means a lot to be able to begin making money from this bad boy.
I started up my own company as Vix Meldrew to show I mean business.
Which reminds me - I'll be offering more opportunities for 'working lunches' where I can get together with you and help with finding your blog brand, voice and strategy as well as take some pictures of you. I shall even be productive enough to get a page up on the blog explaining more so STAY TUNED BISHES.
I'll be booking more comedy gigs (if I don't bottle it after my next one) and I'll be on your TV more (you might even see me much sooner than you think).
I'll be exploring and trying to find my own personal style which is a big transition for me as I get older and more comfortable with my odd body shape (read: completely out of shape).
I'll also be travelling more so that I can produce more posts like '24 Hours in Paris' that I had so much fun in producing.
Finally, I'll hopefully be doing less of the wanking over myself that this terribly self-indulgent post has encouraged me to do.
And who knows what else 2018 has in store but PLEASE get in touch via social media to tell me what you want to see more of. Are you nosey and want to find out if I've ever squirted OR do you want me to bring you topical news with a spin? Or both? Or more of my face? I DON'T KNOW HELP ME.
Live True London
I was lucky enough to be invited to Live True's Clapham salon for a full head of baylayage and a cut. Which could not have come at a better time.
Usually my hair does not colour well at all but my stylist wouldn't give up, tinting, washing and painting more than 4 times to get the desired effect.
The salon itself is modern, welcoming and a haven for an afternoon of you time.
The stylists listened to exactly what I wanted and completely recreated the Pinterest picture I took with me. No they couldn't make me Rachel Weisz but they totally made me a fresher version of myself.
Live True are offering you guys a 25% discount on treatments when you quote, 'Blogger Offer' - so why not have a refresh like me?
This is not a sponsored post but Live True did sort my barnet out for me - however all views are my own and if I didn't like the service there's no way you lot would be seeing my bonce up this close.
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